recent thoughts....

I really am happy to be back home and it is exciting to be able to wear all of my winter clothing and walk in the crisp chilly weather. But today I feel solemn. I don't understand how it is that I was so excited to come home and now that I am at home I feel like a part of me is missing. I don't get it.

It is not like I am aching to go back to Mexico because it feels right to be here but I just feel like my thoughts are somewhere else. I feel distracted. I feel not wholly me. I don't like this feeling and I hope that it is not as obvious to those around me.

And... I really miss speaking Spanish. I already feel like I am losing it. And that scares me. (sigh) I just don't know what I feel...